So what do I do now? This huge, crucial, instrumental part of my life is gone. Finished. I will never compete in another tournament, never speak before a panel of judges. More importantly, I'll never have the same camaraderie with my opponents and fellow competitors, the hugs and smiles and tears that come in the midst of competition. I will experience this world on the other side of the glass, so to speak. No matter how much my friends love me, it will never be the same. No matter how many times I come to hang out, there will never be a repeat of those mind-boggling, heart changing, earth shattering conversations. No matter how many tournaments I attend, I can never return to that world.
But that's okay. Even though it hurts right now--and it hurts so much right now--I know that God is faithful. He put these experiences and people in my life for a purpose and has used them to accomplish beautiful things. And He hasn't abandoned me just because I graduated from high school. There will always be more experiences, more conversations, more friendships that lift me up and draw me closer to Him. God has used NCFCA in this season and that is only a foretaste of the seasons to come. I trust that His love and wisdom are at work; His will is sovereign and perfect.
I praise you, Lord, for your goodness and mercy. Thank you for your grace--your unmerited favor. You have given me so many gifts--unbelievably amazing friends, incredible opportunities to speak to judges, and countless ways to serve Your will. Show me, teach me, lead me in how to be content and joyful in pursuing Your will. Help me to wait patiently on you and not compare my blessings with those of others.
Written by Magali
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This is beautiful. Thank you, Magali. :)
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